i suddenly feel very calm...dunno why but its like in e quietness of the night,all i can heard is my itunes playing...not sleepy tonight idky...might be starbucks...

and just now i went out with kylene and lydia...thanks girls for the birthday present..i love tad teddy,must have cost u all a bomb,next time dun spend so much...and e video is nice...funny i should say...

side tracking now...there has been this thing gg through my mind...currently tinking now..what i'm actually doing with my life...cause its like quite messy now,things are gg to get better i'm sure...but thinking back,i'm still holding onto something,idk what.....been seeing quite a lot of old images in my head recently...its like e thing i'm holding on is something tt i'm protecting...but protecting against what idk???and somehow...i feel excited and scared for next sat...if i can get e day with someone...its more scary than gg out alone with a guy i swear...
and just now kylene told me jaiya's got a new bf...but at 1st she was hesitant abt telling me cause of various reasons...but i couldn't be happier for my besties to get their own bfs...someone who loves/care for them =) if given a choice i rather see all my friends be happy in their own ways and get nothing for myself...i won't mind at all...
apart from that...since i'm 18 now...its only 7years more to being 25...why talk abt 25 now when i'm only 18 if u're wondering...well simple reason is tt,e other day me and kylene were talking abt what we wanna do next time...and how successful we'll be in our own way....well apprently kylene hasn't made up her mind to where she wants to study for uni....lydia too and what's more jaiya....for me it isn't any better....so i somehow realised tt i'll either make the best out of it or a total mess...and i swear my dad wants me to go to sydney u or NSW...but its like i feel right,if i control my future,why not let me decide instead of deciding it for me...there's this irony sometimes....but i certainly know tt one day the 4 of us is gg to sit down and when we look back at our past,we'll nvr forget the times we had...KYLENE,LYDIA,JAIYA:I'LL KEEP THAT CD OF MINE AND WE SHALL WATCH IT AGAIN WHEN WE'RE 25...LETS MAKE A DATE,16.07.2016 SET???