haha....it always feels good to be a helping hand to other...and thats why i find those ppl who put others before self is reallie someone we can salute to...ytd i&e event was totally awesome...though starting and planning e whole thing e whole event was tough,interacting with the kids was pure fun...and reallie its a joy to see their smile...no wonder they say kids's smiles are always e sweetest...anw gg 2 see my 2 lovely nieces this fri....
p.s js...u pang sei kia....nvr play dgn last night...-.-

just wanna talk 2 u
just wanna see u
just missing u
just too afraid to tell u

i suddenly feel very calm...dunno why but its like in e quietness of the night,all i can heard is my itunes playing...not sleepy tonight idky...might be starbucks...

and just now i went out with kylene and lydia...thanks girls for the birthday present..i love tad teddy,must have cost u all a bomb,next time dun spend so much...and e video is nice...funny i should say...

side tracking now...there has been this thing gg through my mind...currently tinking now..what i'm actually doing with my life...cause its like quite messy now,things are gg to get better i'm sure...but thinking back,i'm still holding onto something,idk what.....been seeing quite a lot of old images in my head recently...its like e thing i'm holding on is something tt i'm protecting...but protecting against what idk???and somehow...i feel excited and scared for next sat...if i can get e day with someone...its more scary than gg out alone with a guy i swear...
and just now kylene told me jaiya's got a new bf...but at 1st she was hesitant abt telling me cause of various reasons...but i couldn't be happier for my besties to get their own bfs...someone who loves/care for them =) if given a choice i rather see all my friends be happy in their own ways and get nothing for myself...i won't mind at all...
apart from that...since i'm 18 now...its only 7years more to being 25...why talk abt 25 now when i'm only 18 if u're wondering...well simple reason is tt,e other day me and kylene were talking abt what we wanna do next time...and how successful we'll be in our own way....well apprently kylene hasn't made up her mind to where she wants to study for uni....lydia too and what's more jaiya....for me it isn't any better....so i somehow realised tt i'll either make the best out of it or a total mess...and i swear my dad wants me to go to sydney u or NSW...but its like i feel right,if i control my future,why not let me decide instead of deciding it for me...there's this irony sometimes....but i certainly know tt one day the 4 of us is gg to sit down and when we look back at our past,we'll nvr forget the times we had...KYLENE,LYDIA,JAIYA:I'LL KEEP THAT CD OF MINE AND WE SHALL WATCH IT AGAIN WHEN WE'RE 25...LETS MAKE A DATE,16.07.2016 SET???

can you two just freaking shut up in the morning,let me have some peace

times have indeed changed since i attended asthetics night ytd night...and i tell u e performance was alright...but i love seeing my besties and my ex teachers again,some are alr married,some have their own apprentice,and some are still e same as ever...

and a lot of us look different in our outfits,we have all indeed grown much more mature than before,and we could barely recognise each other..but we all haven't forgotten e times we had when we were 13-16

and ytd night seriously made me tink after having a convo with my besties...somehow it make me realised tt if we're gg back for the next asthetics night we're gg 2 be like frigging 20years old,which makes us like almost at e end of poly life or for some,start of uni life...and e tot of what happens after tt scared me,cause me and kylene were talking what we're gg 2 go after in e future...and somehow its either a sync or swim thing eh??and thanks for my 3besties for being of supportive of me...u'll always be in my heart BESTIE FTW!!!....okay pictures up soon i promise =)

p.s.i reallie want to know if u're gg 2 be the next one?

i finally lost my temper at e girls...for once..
its like they dun frigging take training seriously...
and its just 2more weeks 2 street netball...
and they dun know how strong e teams can be
i've played it last year and got trashed like hell
tts why i dun want 2 see my girls being trashed like hell during e games
and then they all can just anyhow count e passes
walk also walk so slowly....
dun shout out for the ball..
and they just can't seem to frigging communicate with each other..
so many come late...
some of u dun even want to master e basics...
some just too lazy to do proper passes...
some just want to play match...
some are too overpowering..
some are too shy...
wtf is this man...
play like a team pls girls...
dun go f* e whole thing up
i see u all so nua during e ball handing and passes..
u tink i not angry...
its just tt every week me and shu nvr say anything one
we can spend 1 over hour doing passes...
no prob with us one...
and everytime u all play matches...
every week tell u abt giving and making space...
in e end need remind u all
so tt means if i not there,u all won't rmb anything tt i told u all last week lah???
and doesn't mean tt there's no competitive seniors watching u all
mean u all can go climb over me and shu's head...
we seriously damm relaxed abt ur behaviour alr lor
last year where got so relaxed..
if have we alr tio like shit man....
just frigging wake up and play properly lah..
its not tt hard 2 do tt is it??

p.s. their passes suck,their stepping suck,their communication sucks,and i bloody hell tried to correct them...but they dun want to put in e effort...wth am i supposed to do man...
p.s. dun look at me these days and feel as if i freaking owe u sth...dun go acting like some big f***

haha...er..i wnated 2 blog sth just now..but i can't rmb wat exactly...its to rant abt sth but yea....dun feel like typing e details over here....
but anw...projects have finally got into my 2nd year life....so yea...just chiong lor...not as if i nvr chiong b4 like tt.....

and and milli...tell ur mummy tt i dun like js....he's only a friend 2 me....and tell mel tt i'll marry you someday....and James ur bf isn't fake...XD
okayyy..i dun exactly know wat i typing so yea...gfs are love man!!!!

p.s. its 1 more day...oh yay can't wait for asthetics night!!whoopee!!!

reallie touched cause u all cared...

arg....i dun get why i keep on pressing 9877 on my keypad when i call milli instead of 9878....damm it....i seriously dun look forward 2 tt day...

OH YEA OH YEA!!!
ASTHETICS NIGHT IS NEXT FRI
WOOHOO!!!

pardon for being high at this odd hour..

To find what you're here for
Open another door
But I'm not sure anymore
It's just so hard