i love him and he loves me =)))))

exams coming which mean more time after tt...got dip plus chalet,trial camp,FOC,girlfriends,besties,him and many many more haha

well i've been able to put down what has happened over e past 2weeks...its hard but we know tt he'll always be in our hearts [:

I TALKED TO ***** ***
i finally talked to ***** *** like reallie finally,i also dunno why 2day i finally got e courage to call her but yea...we talked just like best of friends and the feeling was just great,i mean it took my mind off some stuff and yes somehow my decision is alr clear...it doesn't matter how many days tt ***** *** left me but 1 thing for sure is tt we definitely still think the same abt matters laugh abt it...and we can talk as if our age gap isn't tt big....and i know ***** *** so well tt i can alr predict wat she gonna tell me,it just feels like ***'s so close 2 me but yet again we're actually quite far in distance...and and...i seriously feel like a jerk,after so long then call her and have all e stupid tots,only when there's like trouble then call her...someone slap me pls...i'm so blessed then i always forget abt it...hai....

anw....there's just too many things happening this few days,i just dun wanna see some ppl collaspe so pls take good care of urself ppl...dear Jamie always give u all support no matter wat happens,so yea....okok gotta go now toodles

#guess i know how i feel abt you know and we'll always be friends very close friends [:

Love my girlfriends and besties so much tt i rmbed this

Blogged in April 08
ME:I know you all love me but Milli loves me more [:
Said it in Feb 09
Ying Li:I love you all but i love Jamie more XD

haha...see how much i just love them???maybe tts why i dun need to have a bf to get love,cause love is in all kinds of aspects XD

anw getting back to topic...there's a lot of things happening this week and maybe e week before also,but i've decided to put it all down and forget it once and for all until exams are over then maybe i'll start worrying abt it...and and i'm gonna take diploma plus in chem like coolio man...finally i'm in the class alr [: *Jamie Choi will be even more busier* then wat's coming up after exams are like a lot of stuff,trial camp,FOC preperation,dip plus,CIP stuff...and some more lah so yea...gonna be busy,but like it tt way cause i'm a workAHOlic,till then toodles,dear Jamie here has got to study alr [: although i dun tink i'll be studying now =.=

you got me on a ride that will never stop,can't stop
i wanna get down it but u won't let me
you make my heart beat fast,then you make it stop completely
i thought you were a sub,but it seems not now
at time you care so much and at time you ignore it totally
at time i want your attention and you want mine
you make me confused and lost
so what do i do now???

LIFE'S A REALITY,YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP FROM YOUR DREAMS
Oh well i practically didn't slp e whole of last night,was up talking on the phone....and i actually realised tt everyone wants to have their own perfect world...but e thing is tt nothing is perfect and there's no such thing as perfect in the 1st place....cause if u ask me i also dunno lah cause i dun believe in being perfect and maybe tts why i like being unperfect,getting hurt,hurting ppl around me,getting a whole lots of emotions and stuff like tt...so yea...maybe its because of this perfect thingy tt makes ppl dun wanna wake up to reality,they always think that they are safe in their dreams,but they dun exactly see wat's actually brewing under....which is also somewat quite sad...maybe its just tt i'm different from all of you all,tts why sometimes its hard to relate my tinking to others...but as long as my besties and girlfriends can understand can alr....

so much has happened lately...and now i know that mummy is always right...my mummy's forever so smart so stop saying tt u've a brain smaller than a pea...haha...and i promise u no relationships b4 18 okay...haha...[:

anw...sch's been getting really busy these days...and with so much probs i hate weekends and gg home on normal sch day...cause its like so boring and stuff like tt...but no choice lurh....oh ya forgot this....Ying Li no matter wat happens i'll always love u okay [:

okok Jamie over here has to study for physio and maths alr...toodles

#guess i've made my choice tt i still can't forget you,1280days and counting...another 6more months and its gonna be 4years since e day u left